DAILY POST 04/12/08

Before i tell you about the things that i have done today, i'm going to tell you a story that hopefully would evoke feelings in you as much as it did in me.
There was a girl named Sedania who once had a beautifull life, a life that everyone wanted. She had a beautiful loving family, great friends and an incredible boyfriend which she loved very much, she had everything that she could ever ask for, until a terrible tragedy stiked her life and destroyed for ever. Sedania and her family were on a trip to visit the rest of the family for christmas, her boyfriend had come with them because christmas was very important to Sedania. On the way to her aunt's house they had a terribly accident caused by a drunk driver, the car in which Sedania, her boyfriend and family were traveling was hit by a big truck (the driver of the truck was drunk and was driving asleep). Her car was badly hit, her parents even though they were wearing a seat belt fled out of the car and died instantly, what was left of the car fell into a lake and her boyfriend died triying to get her out of the car. Miraculously Sedania survived the accident, but she had lost everything that she had ever loved. She spent over a year in a coma and when she finally had awaken she realized that she was left alone in the world that everything that she had ever loved was gone, she was devastated. Her aunt who cared about her very much decided to bring her to the United States to help her recover and move on with her life. When Sedania arrived to the U.S she did not wanted to live, why should she, she had lost everything that she loved, she did not had anything left, but she decided that if was the only one that had survived that horrible accident was because God wanted her to something good with her life besides she remembered that Leo gave his life to save hers, so she could not give up now, she had to live for him.
She decide that no matter how much it hurt her that her family was gone she had to move on with her life. She started college and she made a lot of friend and as time went on she realized that she was feeling a lot better, that her life did not hurt as much. She met a guy named Alan who like her had a very traumatic life, they became very close friends so close that they shared everything with each other. He had told her about his horrible girlfriend, how much he loved her no matter how bad she was to him. Sedania could feel his pain because even though she did not wanted to she was falling in love with him. She tried so hard to help him realize that that girl was not good for him, that he deserved someone better that. Until one day he found out that she was cheating on him and they broke up. Sedania was so loving to him, she wanted to help him forget about her, she wanted her to see how much she loved him, but he just never did. Short after she had found out that the Devil as she called her was pregnant and that Alan had decided to take her back; when she lokked at him she could see how happy he was because of that..... Sedanai felt so depressed and became so angry at him for taking her back, for not trusting her, for not telling her that he had impregnated her. She was so angry that she never spoke to him again, she felt so much rage inside her that she did not wanted to see him ever again. She knew that he was not worth it because he was not smart enough to see that she had feelings for him, that she actually cared about him, she cared about him so much, but still she could not get him out of her head, she loved him too much to do so. She hated the Evil for carrying his baby inside of her and for having him, for having something that she knew would never have. Today she still feels the same way about him, and she wants him out of her system so bad, but she just can't get him out, no matter what she does... she can't.

Today I had to finish evaluating the books that karen gave me to read. After that she gave me more stuff to read, so i have spent the whole afternoon reading. great, right??